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Bouncing into your world on 12 February 2007 @ 8:13 p.m.
About 4pm today I felt sick and I really felt quite "tinny" inside. I felt like a robot with no innards. It's hard to describe. I realised I needed to eat something and pretty quick. I haven't been eating well this weekend and it rubbed off today too. 2 chocolate coated cereal bars at 11am do not make breakfast and lunch a combined meal. So tonight I ate 3 hotdog sausages, 1/2 a roll, fried onions, sauce and chips. I feel like I have eaten far too much and the amount of fat in my stomach is making me feel ill and lethargic. I know this is not healthy. Things are getting obsessive. I know I can have an odd day or two where I can eat what I want without it causing a problem but mentally I feel really odd. Even with all that, I have probably only hit about 1000 cals today as "breakfast and lunch" was a total of 220 calories. I still cycled tonight too. 20 miles plus a 45 minute gentle walk during the day. Over the past 2 nights I have made up for the night I missed on Saturday with the cycling. I need a new hobby. Something relaxing. I KNOW the weight will be a hefty drop this week. I really feel that. I feel the difference in myself. I see the difference in myself. My legs have definition. I see the shape my legs should be with huge muscles at the back of my shins. I can see improvement and I can see where I could be in the summer if I keep up working at this. The trouble being that now I have had this sort of weekend the chances of piling it all back on to compensate for eating crap is rather high for next week. *Sigh* I need to eat more and more balanced things again. I know I can do it but need to set my mind to it and stop being lazy with food. I know that the more I prepare a good meal, the more I enjoy it. I need to get over that laziness and put the same effort into food that I am putting into exercise.
Currently: 13st 7lb. 189lbs. Total loss: 6st 13lb. 100lbs.
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