Bouncing into your world on 08 May 2007 @ 7:48 p.m.

So one year down the line....

The results?

I have gone from a 22-24 top down to a 12-14 top.

5 sizes.

The bottom half is ALWAYS slower but I am getting quite alot of space in my size 18 trousers and wear size 16 shorts for exercising. So I will count that as 4 sizes smaller than my size 24 stretch jeans and trousers I lived in.

Shorts? Not a chance!

I know I have lost alot of weight. I see it, I feel it but I still have fat days.

I cannot describe how fat I feel right now as I have had a large meal where I haven't worried about portion size or the amount of calories I ate in one sitting. I even ate cake for once.

I feel pretty bloated now. I know I ate too much and I'm feeling bad.

I'm also feeling like maybe I am trying a bit too hard. What happens if I reach what I want to reach? Will I be happy then or continue to push the bar up another notch and raise my game?

I should stop watching all these "size zero" shows. The mentality always rubs off on me when I am watching them. Which is really worrying. There have been alot of them on tv recently and they do get into my head. For the hour they are on at least.

I mean I do watch what I eat and I know what I am doing. I think I am doing this sensibly and I hope I can achieve what I want to by sticking with this way of life. It's not a diet anymore. This is how I am losing weight and it's been working a year. I have adapted to this being the daily routine.

My exercise is normally an hour per day with 1-2 days rest per week. Although I must admit, it's more like 1 day rest a week and many weeks, I don't rest at all. Exercise has become a hobby. It makes the evenings go quicker when I live alone. Yes, there is my little boy but he is in bed by just after 7 so by the time I go to bed at midnight/1am I have alot of time to do nothing by myself. I no longer count walks as exercise either. I don't feel like I am pushing hard enough to be exercising. I like to see and feel the improvement in my muscle strength, in my body "tone". I am even finding my arms are getting there. I hate my baggy upper arms but that is getting smaller and it is getting firmer. The baggyness feels heavier as I am building the muscles there.

Nothing is going to make me give up.

Heaviest: 20st 9lb. 289lbs.

Currently: 13st 7lb. 189lbs.

Total loss: 6st 13lb. 100lbs.