Bouncing into your world on 14 February 2007 @ 10:34 a.m.

Today I weigh 15st 4lbs. This week I lost 5lbs.

I have worked SO hard for this. I am winning and getting where I wish to be. I am 3lb off my first stone for 2007. And just 2lb away from a 4 stone loss since I took this seriously in May 06. (56lbs) I have such serious determination it's almost competetive to prove to myself I can do it.

I was pleased to stay at 15st 9lbs last week. I had a "heavy" weekend and started my period on my weigh day so I was chuffed. This week......ok, I may have exercised mostly through stress and general pissed-off-ness but wow, I am so pleased with myself.

I feel I need to make things more stable though. I need to keep it steady and feel like at the moment, I may be doing too much to it too quick. That worries me. I have always said and always believed that the quicker weight comes off, the easier it us to make it up. But I do feel pretty good. :)

Yet, even with that said, if I can finish Febuary BELOW 15stone I would be so happy. But I do know that 5lb in 2 weeks is alot to ask and probably unrealistic to aim for. I have NEVER been below 15st 4lb so I am so glad to be back at my lowest ever weight and the more I lose weight, the more determined I get to do even better. I am finally winning this lifelong fight.

Last night I watched You Are What You Eat, I love that show. I ended up cycling 25 miles again last night which was supposed to be a night off the exercise. I had finished my 15 miles before 8pm and well, that McKeith woman makes me more determined and it doesn't feel that much effort to cycle for nearly an hour a day now when I do it in blocks of 12-20 minutes a time.

Anyway, the point of YAWYE last night was they were doing families. One woman was VERY close in weight to me, about 3lb heavier than I am now but the one thing I noticed was she was huge compared to me. She said she was a size 24. I am down to a size 16-18. I didn't take note of her height though I wish I had. The scales were similar but I notice my face shape is not round, I have cheeks and a stronger jawline than ever before. The biggest thing I noticed when they do the "swimming costume thing" was my muscle tone. I have barely any stomach and my legs look toned more than fat these days.

It did make me rethink my goal.

I am not going to do this by weight but by size. We are all so different. Shape and weight are completely different things. Someone can be around 15st and 16-18, someone else can be 15st 7 and 24. It is all about body shape and where we hold the weight. I know I am bottom heavy and sometimes it feels more so when it is my bottom half I exercise resulting in muscles in places I don't expect. It just seems so surreal.

Heaviest: 20st 9lb. 289lbs.

Currently: 13st 7lb. 189lbs.

Total loss: 6st 13lb. 100lbs.